I am thirty years old, but I don’t exist yet. Prints i zlidaria. Nso ami not seen ke e. . . Erimibot. Urgh… Okay. This world has a way of laughing at us . If you direct a show on law and order, you end up breaking it yourself. If you give relationship advice, na dey your wahala go show face. You will end up having to see your own relationship going astray. That is the way the universe does it. The first will be last and the last will be first and everything will turn upside down because our world is messed up.
Trust. Tell me who can I run to, who can I trust with my life if I have to? Ayo sings in her song “who” . She doesn’t give an answer but I do. God. Honestly, I don’t still see any place in the bible where we are asked to trust people. We are asked to love but trust is not a requirement. I was talking to myself this afternoon. Yes, I think there is a test which shows smart people talk to themselves, so it is not what you are thinking 🙂 . So basically I was asking myself if there is anything I cannot imagine or think are off limits-unbelievable-oh-my-goodness-did-that-just-happen? My answer is no. Do i think I can talk to a harmless tv presenter and he or she suddenly reaches out for no reason to strangle me and i won’t be shocked? My answer is no. I can imagine the scene . Anyone could go mad any day, many people are hiding luxurious sins in their hearts, you never really can tell. How do i know? I belong to the human race and I know my heart as the Bible says is capable of great evil. Yep mushy introvert and all but sin is not a respecter of temperament so one thing I trust is that everyone i meet is capable of great evil except God restrains him or her . Not very flattering, but if any one sees me , truth is that is actually what i think of you and the bible says so too.
So, basically trustless. Being distrustful is liberating. You are free to trust what will never fail and your trust would cover up your reliance in the one you are trusting to keep the humans you meet from doing the strangling and harm that they could so easily do even with all that education, given the right circumstances of course. I trust no one and that is not a bad thing. It gives space for people to fail and you to not be affected. People are owned by God afterall and you do not need to heave and sigh no more. You can breathe freely and trust God instead to make all things work for your good. Do i now think a holy spirit filled brother can commit adultery? Very much. Do i think that a man who prays eight hours could be be watching child porn? Very much. Only the grace of God. Did i think this way early this year? No. But experience and the bible says the heart is evil and only God sustains. Everyone is at risk of falling into great sin. I vouch for no one. I see every great preacher as the equal of a young Christian. With years of experience or not, years of discipline or not, no man is clove anything until we leave this earth. Satan never stops disturbing us till we leave, so yes and no, depending on how you answer in English, no man is too big to be tempted, not even me , your dear writer .
Trust in the lord with ALL your heart is the word for the day. Not in people, not in your perceptions of them , not in their good behavior, not in the gentleness and works towards you. Not in their promises . Not in their frame. Not in yourself but in God.
In Christ alone, my hope is found. He is my guide, my strength, my song. Amen.
When am thirty…
If I become thirty,let this be the same words I say.