What 2015 has taught Me:
20 15 did not begin with a bang. It was winter and winter never begins with a bang especially if it is a continual process. So ,I don’t like writing stuff like this for the vain reason that a lot of people are doing the same thing, but I think this would be good for record purposes and God willing, if I see the end of 2016, I might have memories to look back on.
In 2015, I learnt that life is really not as boring and predictable as I thought. I no longer think I have seen everything that is to be seen under the moon and as much as I steel myself against surprises, 2015 has taught me that as long as I live, my ability to be surprised would not die off completely. The good ones and the bad ones, I will be surprised and shocked by one from either group. Inevitable, sort of.
2015 has left left a residual line in my head “no one is indispensable” .Those words play in my head frequently. I lost a relationship that began with those words and whose nature was in convincing me that the statement was untrue, and whose end made me realize that it might be true after all. Like the cycle of life, the end justified the means, and so I bore my losses remembering that all turns out for good at the end of the day. This in a way makes me want to be more of a friend to people than expect same from them. So here is to more giving than receiving and that should be good for everyone.
2015 did not leave me feeling super exceptional, which is something I had taken for granted for years. In 2015, I was many times average, or less than average despite my efforts. In a way, this made me rest less on myself, capabilities and strength. It made me detach myself more from what people think they know about me or what I thought I knew about me. It made me desire more to be satisfied in being known by God accurately even when no one understands or views me the way I would want. It made me value stories of ordinary men like David Brainerd to unknown people without the cameras and yet be happy that even in obscurity, he was not forgotten by his maker.
2015 has taught me to be okay to fail and make mistakes, and not lose hope.It has taught me to live each day at a time and to not stress even when I can’t see the big picture. That seconds are for living too and not just the glamorous next something something years ahead.
2015 has taught me that my needs will always be provided even if its the last second before a major disaster. This is something I have to believe more and I am hoping 2016 takes note because it is all about Him taking us deeper than our feet could ever wander.
And lots more…